Sweep all the small pieces and dirt into the dustpan. There are a few large pieces left, but Xia Xiaozhou has to squat down to pick them up. But I didn’t expect this squat to make her find something yellow … that is, when she was in primary school, the most common industry was covered with water and mud by gan, and she couldn’t see her face. It is estimated that it was because she was put on the bottom of the flowerpot.
She is Wu’s great aunt Sun Sun’s female, who abandoned the property and turned it into a flowerpot mat at random. She planned to throw it into the dustpan, but she inadvertently caught a glimpse of the words,’ I’m pregnant, my parents don’t care, don’t let me be born, what should I do?’ Perhaps because of the age, the handwriting is already very weak, and some places are blurred. At first, she inadvertently threw the property into the dustpan, and she was still in her heart.
For a second, an idea flashed through her mind so fast that she didn’t grasp her consciousness to pick up the industry. Then the intermittent sentence just now quickly looked up. This is the crystallization of … and Dong Ge’s love and affection … I must keep him and make him born … Although the handwriting is very vague, the word body is very beautiful. I can see that the writer has a certain literacy.
It is said that Situ Xi’s mother worked as a teacher in her hometown primary school before she came to this town. This industry should be her day in those days, right?
She got up, hid the karma behind her with one hand, and walked to the front of Situxi with her face still livid. She said softly, Honey, I found something … maybe it was mom’s birthday. Would you like to have a look?
Situxi dazed for a quick return to absolute being, but didn’t speak out at her.
Xia Xiaozhou handed over his inheritance to him, and then he saw that he couldn’t wait to open it and looked at it quickly.
Seeing that his color is getting colder and colder, Xia Xiaozhou hesitated to come to his side and watch it with him. Just when he saw this passage,’ My parents have plotted to abort my baby. I must leave as soon as possible and find a safe place to have the baby … but once I leave here, what should I do if Brother Dong comes back to find me one day and can’t find it?’
A few simple words outlined the hardships behind it, which made Xia Xiaozhou seem to have witnessed the beautiful woman struggling in the past. Generally, she continued to look at it with a dignified heart.’ I don’t care so much. Dad has gone to the hospital to get the medicine back during the day. I have to leave tonight … to leave half of seventy dollars for my parents and take half myself …’
It can be seen that it is not every day to remember Day because an article has been written after the birth of Situ Xi, Xiaoxi is very good and hungry and doesn’t cry. It must be a pity that I have given me such a good child … But how failed a mother is that she has neither enough food nor warm clothes … When will you come back to pick up our mother?
Mom came to see me today. I’m so happy, but mom actually asked me to give Xiaoxi away. How is that possible! Xiaoxi is my child and my treasure. I won’t leave him if I have a breath!’
I still haven’t heard from Dong Ge. It seems that I really should give up hope completely … But Xiaoxi has asked me what should I do if I want my father for a while? The rent is due, too. I have to take some more work to do …’
Dad was ill and I took Xiaoxi back to see him, but he said he wouldn’t see me. He kept telling me to roll through the door …’
Dad died, and I didn’t even see his old man’s house for the last time, so I didn’t dare to send him the last trip … I was so unfilial. God should have struck me with lightning …’
It was a long time before I got another article,’ Mom is so ill that Xiaoxi is just the time to grow up … They are the only two relatives in my life. I must take good care of them … Brother Dong is sorry …’
Today, Xiaoxi asked me to have a father again, and asked me what classmates all have dads, but he didn’t? I don’t know how to answer. He can tell his father that he has gone away for a long time. He will come back one day … But I know he won’t come back. I have given up hope …’
Today Xiaoxi came back crying and asked me what everyone said he was a bastard? My heart ached, but I couldn’t answer a word …’
Xiaoxi fought with his classmates again today. I asked him, but he refused to tell the truth. I know it was because of those rumors. I have no position to defend myself … I have to live, support Xiaoxi and send him to high school and college in the future. I can’t afford luxury long ago …’
Xiaoxi hasn’t said a word to me for many days. I know he hates me … but how can I be willing to practice myself like this if there is another way?’
Xiaoxi’s face has been smiling a lot recently. I know that the new girl next door brought him happiness that he finally had friends with me …’
I never thought that I would be smashed by Xiaoxi. I never thought that he would be so angry and then kill someone with a knife … My child has never had a good day since the day my irresponsible mother brought him into this world. He is still so young, and his life has just begun. I can’t let him die like this. I have to save him. I have to save him!’
I finally see him again after being separated for 19 years, but there is no longer love in my heart. Every day and every year has passed, and I hope he can save Xiaoxi’s life. I want him to be willing to pay my own life for me … He asked me to come back and wait for news that he would consider me. I know that he is somewhat tempted to save Xiaoxi, but I haven’t made up my mind yet. I don’t have the strength to live anymore. If my life can arouse his deepest guilt, let him always remember that he owes our mother Xiaoxi’s life, he will certainly be saved!
This whole day is finally remembered. After watching Xia Xiaozhou’s face, I found that I was already full of tears before I knew it, and my heart was so sour that I wanted to find a quiet place to cry!
Look at Situ Xi again, his eyes are red, and it’s not much better. Although these years’ experience has made him understand and forgive his mother, he still feels that he didn’t really understand his mother when he saw her short life journey, when she simply recorded her feelings on paper and saw the mottled tears on the paper!
It’s not a glorious thing to get pregnant before marriage even today. What’s worse, it’s conservative. Thirty years ago, when it was worse, the local area was still so backward. Situxi can’t imagine how determined her mother was to insist on having him, her own conditions and the family background of her father, the village head of their small village. If she is willing to abort him, she can get another ordinary happiness in her life!
However, his mother insisted on giving birth to him and did everything she could to bring him up to such a big age. He wanted him to live until he was ten years old except for his father. It can be said that he had hardly suffered anything and finally saved him and ended his life! However, it is such a great mother that he almost never showed her kindness for a day before her death. Even after he knew something, he never called her’ Mom’ again. What a shame!
Sadness, remorse, guilt, remorse, grief … All kinds of feelings and exchanges weave together, so that Situxi can’t help but hug Xia Xiaozhou and let her sit in his leg and then bury her face in her arms.
[123] remorse
Xia Xiaozhou knew that Situxi was crying. Although he was holding her, he didn’t make a sound or tremble, but she knew that he was crying. His hot tears not only wet her chest, but also wet her heart, which made her eyes and heart wet with the tide.
But Situxi has cried, so she can’t cry any more. She adjusts her emotion as quickly as possible, and then hugs his head and gently touches his hair. At this moment, everything is pale. She knows that he doesn’t need her to keep silent and comfort him.
SiTuXi cried for a while love mood gradually stabilized, but it was still a long time before he looked up from Xia Xiaozhou’s arms and asked, Are you sleepy? I’m going to make a fire and light some hot water. Let’s go to bed early as soon as we wash. She got up and strode out.
Xia Xiaozhou knows that he is embarrassed. After all, not every man is willing to show his vulnerable side in front of his wife. They prefer to keep an indomitable image in his wife’s mind at all times. Instead of going out with her, she left the room alone to make the bed.
When she was almost finished, Situxi came in with hot water. After they simply washed up, Situxi took off his coat and lay in the bed to warm the bed before letting Xia Xiaozhou lie in and then turned on the light.
In the dark, neither of them spoke and could hear each other breathing.
